How do you stay positive when you share your living space with someone who wakes up angry and whines and cusses and swears and acts on his anger every moment of every day?
How do you deal with your own grief and challenges in a positive way when this negativity is all around you?
I am feeling stuck on the dark side and I can’t find the little light of mine to let it shine. Every tiny amber I reach for is killed, every star shot down.
There are so many happy thoughts and big ideas. And yet I can’t seem to hold on to any one. I am on a derailed train and it is going over that cliff. Fast.
I know very well that someone else’s issues aren’t mine. Have nothing to do with me. And I know I have a choice to let them bounce off. I just can’t seem to hold on to any hope, can’t find anything to look forward to. Eight of Swords? Nine of Swords?
It only takes 16 seconds to start a new train of thoughts, new energy, new momentum. 16 seconds focus on something to smile about… To focus on that little light in a sleeping cat. Or in the pretty birds pecking away joyfully at the suet I left for them. Or the trusting little chipmunk wreaking havoc in the yard…
I am looking forward to spring when days are longer and brighter and every critter is out and about.
My dog decided to take off after something this afternoon (4:15-4:30ish). So far she has not returned and my attempts to find her have left me empty handed.
She took off from 290th near cty V… She took off North but could have gone anywhere.
Leya is an English Shepherd and looks like a Border Collie/German Shepherd cross… Mostly black with a white chest and feet and some white on the nose. She wears a bandana and has tags. Very friendly but may be standoffish with men.
Leya is a service dog and very important to me. If you see her pls let me know.
I have posted on local list serv and appreciate any further distribution.
Thank you all!!
As I am waiting out winter in preparation for the new life I will be starting – myself as a new farmer and with the seeds I will be planting and nourishing and cultivating – I am working at a dairy farm, milking 48 cows and, my favorite, hand feeding the new calves.
There is such innocence and curiosity and expectation in those big eyes… I am drawn in from the first moment and just want to capture that sweet wide-eyed expression. It reminds me of that wide-eyed inner child of mine that has gotten buried under the weight of growing up and striving to have and be and do great things.
As I watch the calves grow and move through the stages, outgrowing the bottle and eventually giving birth and joining the ranks of milkers, I can’t help but notice that their eyes never change. Even in the older, seasoned cows I see that same gentleness and curiosity and expectation…
Animals live in the moment and see each moment new and fresh. Unlike us humans whose vision becomes blurred by the accumulation and assimilation of every moment we live. We do not let go, we do not move on, every moment is measured against all that have come before. Until we overload, have to regroup, and restart. And finally open our eyes again and start a new life – wide-eyed, full of innocence and curiosity and expectation.
Here is to new life and big, open eyes. Blessings for a wonderful season and a fresh start to a new year waiting to be lived one amazing moment at a time.